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With Age Comes…

24 Apr

IMG_4239The day I turn 28, I started addressing myself as if I just turned 40. Not that I’m saying 40 is old- but I’m 28 years old for Christ sake! I feel older than I actually am and sometimes I feel like I should have known more or have already accomplished more things.

I like to believe with age comes maturity; and for me, I want to be able to do things by myself, depending on myself more. A couple years ago, you couldn’t force me to dine out or to attend church alone. You couldn’t force me to do anything solitary, unless it had to do with my living space: that I can’t compromise.

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Hitting Rock Bottom

20 Sep

I understand it all!

10661657_981089251930536_5648916279989682922_o“Why didn’t you tell me?” “Oh, I didn’t think you were  being serious!” Going through depression has to be the hardest phase I had to experience in my entire life. Because of the way I carry myself, someone as hype as I am- explaining to others that I was depressed was the least thing everyone wanted to hear.

The word depression is described as feelings severe despondency and dejection, low spirit, etc.… (Merriam-Webster). I am a high-spirited person! I portray myself in a way that only brings positive energy around others. It even reflects on the way I dress: I wear a lot of fun and vibrant colors, which stand out among others- such as pop colors as neon.

A couple months ago, I have found myself in a place I couldn’t ever imagine: depression. For months, I lost my appetite, panic attack, couldn’t sleep at night, I was dealing and still dealing with a project that I have invested every breath that I’ve got, “4:53”. Through it all, I realized no one really understood me.

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I Found Myself by Losing Myself

1 Jul

IMG_3565-2It SEEMS like I have been slacking around; it may appear that I haven’t done much. I promised at least a post per month- I skipped last month. Not because I wasn’t aware, but I had so much going on- I had to focus on things that required much more attention than before. Now that is it all over- therefore, I can get back to my old routine.

So what has been going on? Well, enough to write a book. I haven’t posted anything since my short film came out in April. What a great learning experience- I must say? Not that I ever second-guessed myself. Based on people feedback, the film exceeded my expectation. I now know what I need to focus on for my next short or feature films. The topic I chose to write about targeted the audience and reactions I was aiming for. With that alone, I’m overjoyed.  Continue reading

So much to do- so little time!- Life as a Filmmaker

24 Apr

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There are seven days in one week, 24 hours in one day and 60 minutes in one hour. I used to think 24 hours was such a long time, sleeping eight (8) hours was a lot- until I started working on different film productions. Where do times go? For the past months, I can barely tell the difference between my days and nights. I work days and nights- I even forget how it feels to sleep for more than five (5) hours. However, the exciting part about it- I’m doing everything I have always dreamt of- though I don’t sleep, I’m constantly tired- barely have the time to eat a home-cooked meal, but I love it- I’m doing things that makes me happy.

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When Nights and Days become One

8 Mar

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At the beginning of the year, I promise that I was going to do monthly-posts, I am keeping that promise; boy I did not expect February to be that hectic. The month was over before I could even imagined- the good thing, I overcame it so no complaining.

I enjoyed February, and I hope you did, as well.  I started pre-production of my film on the first week of the month- meaning, holding auditions, meeting up with my cinematopher, scouting for locations, finding an editor and casting the rest of the crew. All this had to be done within a month. I was nervous, I didn’t think I was going to be able to handle it all, since this was my first, ever film that I am directing, producing and let alone it was written by me.  With the way things are going right now, I am very happy.  We are scheduling to start shooting the last week of March, as nervous that I am- I cannot wait.

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Where did January Go?

1 Feb

“Don’t wake me up until it is all over” I guess I slept the entire January- where did it go?

IMG_6921I have been awfully busy lately. Mainly, taking care of school’s work and me, I barely noticed that January has crawled up on me.

I figure the best way to stay on track with my new year’s resolution is to do monthly- evaluations. That- itself, I will be able to see what I mastered on the previous month(s) and what I need to give more attention for the upcoming months. On my last post, I promised that I was going to start handling things differently this year. I have been doing just that- better yet, I’m doing more than I envisioned- problems? Uhh- yes! Don’t we all have them? I love working out- the best way to start my day is from a great workout. I have been doing so much lately- I barely have any time to make it to the gym. And whenever I do have some free time- my body gives up on me. So the past couple days, as I struggle to get everything positioned- whenever I’m too tired or unable to make it to the gym- I make sure I do at least abs at home. Spring break is around the corner and summer will be here before anyone knows it. Whatever I can do to get them muscles tight, I definitely will do it.

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Quarter Century: MC vs. The Society

15 Oct

Today, October 15th, I turned 25 years old. Shocking, right? Clearly I don’t look like my age- I’m not sure if that’s a positive or negative thing- but yeah! I am a quarter of a century. These years have gone by so fast; I was just 14 years old yesterday. Needless to say, I am beyond grateful to see this beautiful day.  A lot of people don’t even have the chance to see their first birthday- luckily; I get to see my 25th.Image

So now that I am 25- what now? I remember growing- my friends and I would sit around and plan what we wanted to establish by the time we’re 25. Some of us had different plans, but we all were thriving for something- whether it was starting a family, getting married, finishing school or even moving out our hometown. We all had a goal until we turn that quarter century.

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