My Epic Year

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img_2563At the beginning of the year, we like to claim the year is going to be our year. Claim it in the name of JESUS! By declaring it, we hope to achieve bigger goals, starting a new diet or even becoming a better person. Some of us actually do keep up with these resolutions; however, to others- they all are forgotten by the first week of February.

The 2016’s year  was epic for me, positively and negatively. I have gone through so many journeys; it’s almost impossible to believe that it has only been 365 days. This year, I directed one of the many scripts I have written. It is one of my favorites- also a project that hits home whenever I talk about it. This year, “4:53” was born. It is a film focusing on Haitian mothers. I wanted to create a world where women are valued and strong. This film main goal was to show the rest of the universe how bold and capable are Black women. Though it has been a rough journey, I cannot wait to finish this project in the upcoming year.

Earlier this year, I received my Masters of Fine Arts in film. After attending Howard University for three rough and eternity  years, I can finally add the MFA to my name. I left Florida three years ago, to live in a city where I knew no one. I was broke, lonely and afraid; which also helped me to go after my dreams even more.

img_2614I was beyond ecstatic get so much done at the beginning of 2016. I finally found peace within. My heart was at ease; I opened up myself and expressed my love to someone for the first time in a long time. I was doing great! This was MC’s time to shine. Though I worked a full time job, I found time to shoot a 30-minute film, worked on a documentary and I was a full-time student. I was overwhelmed! I felt into depression. I had everything I have ever wished for; yet, I was in a dark place. At that point, nothing seemed to be mattered. Thank goodness I overcame my weakness. One thing I do realize- trying to do a gazillion of things at once won’t get me anywhere.

I am not waiting for 2017 to do things differently; moving forward, I do plan to do what makes me happy. Life comes with a lot of successes and a lot of disappointments- I wish I knew what’s awaiting for me. I can only wish to follow my dreams, to fall in love with the universe and pray to God that all go well.

 

Happy New Year’s everyone!

Let’s attack 2017 fiercely.

Feeling like 30 at 28

17 Oct

fullsizerender Turning a new age is a blessing! I get to see my 28th birthday this week and for that, I couldn’t be more thankful. As excited, as I am to celebrate my 28th year on earth, nothing scares me the most than turning 30 years old. See, I’m not even there yet and I’m already worried about the things I cannot control. Typical me!

Turning 30 to me means that I should have everything figure out by then. It is the “I’m done with the foolery” year. The year where career is popping, settling down or in the process of doing so, and of course a lot of traveling. But, as I get closer to 30, I feel like I’m nowhere near ready for the things I expected to have accomplished by the time I’m 30- that itself scares the crap out of me.

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Be Aware: Haiti and its ‘so-called’ NGOs

9 Oct

img_0094Haiti has once again hit with another catastrophe, hurricane Matthew. A hurricane that left many people killed, homeless, ruined from all their crops and livestock- a “no exit” situation.

Will Haiti ever catch a break? From hurricane Jeanne in 2004- one of the deadliest hurricanes in the Caribbean, that killed approximately 3000 people from Gonaives alone, a commune in northern part of Haiti. Hurricane Jeanne caused many devastating floods and mudslides. Four years later, in 2008, hurricane Gustav, Hanna and Ike once again hit Haiti.

And when we thought we have been through it all; then, 2010’s earthquake happened. A large scale of earthquake that struck down the island, killing over 160,000 of people and leaving many injured, physically and mentally. For the past six years, we, Haitians, have struggled to rebuild our country- most importantly, rebuilding our mental selves. A process that seems like taking eternity!

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Hitting Rock Bottom

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I understand it all!

10661657_981089251930536_5648916279989682922_o“Why didn’t you tell me?” “Oh, I didn’t think you were  being serious!” Going through depression has to be the hardest phase I had to experience in my entire life. Because of the way I carry myself, someone as hype as I am- explaining to others that I was depressed was the least thing everyone wanted to hear.

The word depression is described as feelings severe despondency and dejection, low spirit, etc.… (Merriam-Webster). I am a high-spirited person! I portray myself in a way that only brings positive energy around others. It even reflects on the way I dress: I wear a lot of fun and vibrant colors, which stand out among others- such as pop colors as neon.

A couple months ago, I have found myself in a place I couldn’t ever imagine: depression. For months, I lost my appetite, panic attack, couldn’t sleep at night, I was dealing and still dealing with a project that I have invested every breath that I’ve got, “4:53”. Through it all, I realized no one really understood me.

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How do I ask for Help?

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Help:

To give or provide what is necessary to accomplish a task or satisfy a need… (Dictionary.com)

Photo on 2-23-14 at 11.44 AM #5Growing up, my parents raised me to depend on myself. For that, I like to do things by myself. My parents would easily give up their lives so my siblings and me can have whatever we need; but, my goal is to always show them that I am capable of taking care of myself even when it seems a bit impossible!

The word “help” intimidate me. I am afraid that when I ask, some people will say, “no”, and I would be crushed. And if they say, “yes”, but may turn around and do the opposite- I am afraid of disappointment- for that, I just don’t ask.

So when is the right time to ask for help? Right now is the right time. I need help! I have reached the last level of my graduate school and I am in the process making my thesis film. Over the year, I have gone back and forth to find ways to make my film without asking for help. No, I don’t have it like that, and if I did, my film would have been streaming right now.

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Selected Howard University Students are in Haiti

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MC Travels: With a purpose.

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At Port-au-Prince airport

I love to travel but unfortunately, traveling requires times and money- two things I don’t have right now. Well, more like time- eventually when I’m done with school, I plan on travel the world.  I may not be able to travel much; however, greater things keep on happening.

I believe my purpose in life is to be a great photographer, filmmaker and traveling around the globe to help people, (read my blog’s bio). That was the deal and that is still.  As I get older, I only focus on things that are matter to me such as what I have listed above.

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When Friends become Family

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Tim and I during A Man’s Responsibility rehearsal shenanigians

The great Henry Drummond once said, “The people who influence you are the people who believe in you.” I personally don’t have many friends- I can undoubtedly count all my friends together in one hand. I am always on-the-go; with that- it has become harder for me to make friends. With the little friends I have, I honestly call them family, they all are brothers and sisters God blesses me with. I am fortunate enough to have friends who believe in my dreams and they have always been there for me in times of need.

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